Thursday, December 07, 2006

It looks like my future husband has some competition

So, I have always had this little joke that I would pretty much marry a guy who wrote a song for me, we'll whoever he is, he has quite a high standard to meet because today, today, I got my very own song...merry christmas.

Be Like Brooke
She's the queen of the swingers, oh, the Rockfish VIP
She's reached the top and had to stop and that's what's botherin' me
I want to be like Brooke and stroll right in to town
with my big sunglasses on my face
I'm tired of monkeying around.
Oh do be do, I wanna be like Brooke
I wanna walk like Brooke, talk like Brooke too
You see it's true, a girl like me, can learn to be
just like Brooke too.
Katie B and grace are perhaps the silliest little girls I know, but I guess I should get used to it, because it looks like I'm marrying them! ::wink:: I have such cool friends.

Friday, December 01, 2006

Well I Guess This is Growing Up

Maybe you've experienced it, maybe you haven't...but sometimes there are moments in life when you just realize you're growing up. Not neccesarily anything tragic or lifechanging (although, that will certainly do it), but those moments when you just sort of realize that things that you've clung to or enjoyed in the past just aren't as interesting anymore, or that you are just ready to be beyond things that are sort of immature, yet quite a natural part of growing up. It's kind of a hard feeling to explain, though I guarentee most of you will start feeling it soon.

It's kind of been like that lately...just coming to realize that, I'm growing up.

To be honest, I always have thought of myself as mentally being a lot older than my chronological age at anytime (starting in at least middle school), but it doesn't take much to realize how wrong I was, but the other day I was thinking about the first week of college, how completely overwhelming that was. It was never so overwhelming I just had a mental breakdown or anything, but even in the past two years and I see where I have grown up. One particular instance that came to mind was one of the many trips I took to Thomson by myself freshman year (which I didn't mind and still like doing on occasion). It was one of the first days of school and at this point I only knew how to get to Thomson by one particular route. Well, somewhere in the process, I walked down a different road, arrived at Thomson, but had no clue which door to go in to get to the cafeteria. I must have looked lost, even though I am sure I was doing my best to pretend like I knew where I was going, because some girl was like "You can get to the caf from that door" and of course (secretly releaved) I responded "Oh yeah, I know." But even small things like that, heh, were just a few years ago college seemed like such a big deal and now I am wanting to be part of a big, grand adventure.

Anywho, what brought this on is that in the past few days I have had a few instances in where I felt my adult mind starting to kick in:

1. I felt this desire to subscribe to a professional journal
2. I want to host a dinner party
3. I realized I chose to listen to (and enjoyed) the Adult Alternative station on Launchcast

So there you go. That's pretty much all I have to say on this for right now, and yes, I get a chuckle out of the fact that a post of growing up can have a title so very connected to the middleschool version of myself.

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Sucker!

There have only been two instances in my college career where I can truly say I felt like a complete sucker...where someone's really pulled one over on me....both times professors...

the first was in my Political Science 201 class with Dr. Belk (who is amazing by the way). So, this is my first semester in college, in one of the first honors classes I have ever taken here at Winthrop. One of the first days Dr. Belk hands out a "pop quiz." After freaking out about it being a pop quiz and knowing full and well I didn't know the answers to most of the questions, I turn in my quiz. Then we grade them. I got a 20...In a few brief seconds, my academic world comes crashing down. Almost to the point of tears, thinking there was simply no way I was going to cut it in college...Dr. Belk smiles and says "This is the intelligence test they used to administer to decide who could vote. You are educated people and still you couldn't answer the questions, what does that say about this method?" Punked.

the second instance, happened this past Monday. In my tests and measurement class we have been taking a series of personality tests to see how consistent the results are. So, in class, Dr. Daugherty hands out a sheet of paper with our NEO "scores" and an "interpreation" of these scores. Naturally, I am excited to see what my answers reveal about me. I'm reading through the first paragraph and I am thinking to myself "daggum, this about hit the nail on the head" then, being the slow reader that I am, Dr. Daugherty interupts before I am done reading to say, "So how accurate do you feel like these interpretations are?" Then procedes to tell us everyone got the same interpretation, but because they were common experiences and generally free to interpretation statements, we saw in them the similarities to our own experiences. Punked again.

now i just need to pull one over on someone...

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

"Thank God I'm a Country Boy..."

No...I'm not watching Son in Law...

So, I'm sitting here, enjoying the fact there is no class because of Election Day...I've been almost entirely unproductive...and naturally, I start listening to John Denver...actually I don't really know what moved me to do so, but I came across the classic "Take Me Home Country Roads"...West Virginia's state song.

I'm from West Virginia...I have very fond memories of West Virginia as a child, but honestly, I cannot imagine who I would be if I had lived there my whole life. We moved when I was 8, so all those vital, character forming stages like middle school were in Myrtle Beach, but sometimes I try to think about how my life would be if I were still in West Virginia and I just can' t do it. The things that most form my personality I never would have experienced or been a part of if I lived there. I don't know where I'm going with this...I'd like to go visit West Virginia I think.

Sunday, October 22, 2006

Welcome to the Office

So today I was introduced to my new favorite TV show, The Office. Seriously, I had tears pouring out of my eyes during a few of the episodes.
I must say, themed parties really just are more fun, we should have them more often. Katie B and Grace...here's to you!
Good party, co-workers. See you Monday, 9 sharp.
The working boys of Rock Hill.
Katie Katie and Brooke Inc.
Katie and I after a hard-days work. We got the Dundee for wearing ties.
Best Boss Ever and Assisant to the Regional Director

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Right Hand Day

So, today was more or less one of the best days ever...just one of those days when things just seem to go right and beyond.

First, the EAGLE has landed. Katie B and I watched the installation of the eagle statue...that's right, we were part of Winthrop history, we got interviewed and everything. Naturally, I dubbed myself student representative and wanted to get in on some handshake action with DiGorgio, but it failed and we just stood back and kept ourselves entertained for the entire hour and fifteen minutes we spent waiting for this to go down.

Work was rather entertaining. I got a lot of reading done in Harry Potter and I got interviewed for the Winthrop channel to talk about the TRiO program and what I do as a tutor. That's right, I'm pretty much famous around these parts.

THEN...I witnessed a truly momentous occasion. Stephen cut his hair, and I was there to witness it. It looks good, I think a new stage of life is going to be beginning.

But wait, things get better. Dinner...let me just say, total UPGRADE. Thomson was serving steak, and it was good steak....really good steak...with A1 sauce and steak fries. The tea was good AND they had dirt cups for dessert. This is all on a Friday night mind you...I never eat in Thomson but the cafeteria gods were with us tonight.

Katie B and I hit up an improv comedy show after all of this and it really made me wish I had pursued the whole acting thing a little more. I really enjoy performing, and I'm pretty alright at it, I'm comfortable with it. Although, I don't think the theatre scene or lifestyle is really for me...but part of me would like to dabble in that a little more.

Then the night topped off with HIGH QUALITY hanging out with Lil Katie and Mags. Ahh, we never get to hang out just us these days...and what better way to do that then with The Notebook. That movie gets me everytime...I won't lie...I teared a little.

After the movie we just sat on the couch, three in a row, and looked at my scrapbook from freshman year. We've grown up, and pretty soon we're going to be real grown-ups and that is a scary thought.

And now, I am going to sleep in my comfy little university provided bed, with clean sheets and everything as Queen sings me sweet lullabyes.

Monday, October 09, 2006

gloriously silly

so i am sitting here...well i was laying on my bed, completely ready to go to sleep and wanting to get a good night's sleep yet I find myself wide awake in an absolutely gloriously giddy mood...just sort of tickled with life and my own silliness i suppose. the sort of mood that makes me want to listen to catchy pop songs and dance around my room in my pjs...wait, i already did that.

i love when good moods just blindside you!

life really is good....God is good...he loves me...and you too.

Saturday, October 07, 2006

Things from years ago

Right now I am watching Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone on the Disney channel. I haven't seen this movie in years, I love it, but it's been awhile.

However, while I am sitting here I can't help but think back to when this movie first came out in theatres. Man, did Harry Potter hit the world big time. So much publicity surrounding the books and then all the excitement when the movie came out. Ahh, but what I really remember is that on opening night my mom took my little brother and I to see the movie. Going to the movies with mom was always a little bit of a treat but I just remember her taking us to go even though she hadn't read the books and probably had no real desire to see it. But we were there, with all the other excited kids of all ages hanging on every moment of the movie...I can't help but become a little nostalgic.

Also, Thursday night after Crusade we watched The Little Mermaid. Naturally singing took place and the excitement build around the viewing resembled something of the excitment from when I was a little girl. But what was really great was during the part where the chef is chasign Sabstian all over the kitchen I had a very distinct memory from when I was a little girl. My brother's and I made up a game based on that part of the movie. Someone had to be the chef and everyone else was some kind of sea creature waiting to be eaten and you had to get up to the top bunk and under the covers before the chef got you...mind you the game was complete with lines from the movie and four little kids laughing in their best french accents...

sigh, i miss that.

Friday, September 22, 2006

Peabody is an interesting and entertaining place at 2:58 on a Friday afternoon. Boys are just entertaining as they attempt to kill the two minutes before the weight room opens...

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

you know how when you are a little kid, and something happens that you're involved in and someone asks you a question like "what happened?" and your response is "i don't know."--maybe even you give a little shoulder shrug and that cool walk away thing kids do (or 20 year olds). but then if the person is really lucky you might provide some insight into situation which really is an effort to just provide anything to get whoever to leave you alone and you say something like "devin did it". yeah...astronomy makes me feel like a little kid and i just want to shrug my shoulders and be like "i don't know...God did it."

Sunday, September 17, 2006

i really like doing laundry...and making peanut butter and jelly sandwiches...that's why i plan on making it my profession...

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

...rain on concrete...

Monday, September 04, 2006

I Don't Normally Get Attached to TV Personalities but...



He's gone...and that really does make me sad.

Sunday, August 13, 2006

today i felt quite small
im ok with that

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Peru has pretty much been amazing so far. I have had some amazing food and we have had a lot of laughs. Plus we are working on two different churches in Lima and tomorrow afternoon we are going to go to an orphanage to play with the kids and drop off some toys and old clothes and such.

I could enjoy living in Peru I think, I just need to work on my Spanish.

ah, and i ate beef heart today, who would have thunk it?

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

some of the funniest things that happen at camp, i swear, involve a toilet....last summer it was singing to Will on the toilet...and tonight, it was cleaning the nastiest toilet (in the boy's bathroom mind you) i have ever seen in my entire life...two rolls of toilet paper jammed down in it, an explosive case of human excrement and to top it off the stall door was locked and there was more "mess" on the floor, so i climbed over the stall praying my foot wouldn't go straight in the toilet and got to work...fortunately i can't smell because i have a sinus infection.

at one point, as i was trying to plunge this lovely thing, it splashed....all on my leg...so i ran out and immediately grabbed a bottle of sanitizer and sprayed my leg down...yeah...i love final cleanup

Saturday, July 22, 2006

so, finally a week that i can say i was truly satisfied with how it ran. for the most part, no major glitches or scheduling conflicts...most everything ran just as it ought and overall the kids were pretty into all of the activities...i'm dead tired though, not just from this week but from the summer...it's ok...two more weeks and i will be on my way to Peru...yeah buddy!

i really don't have the brain capacity to compose something of much interest at the moment, so i have decided that i will just post a list of things i have thought about over the past week:

1. i do fear that i shall always struggle with apathy
2. i want a tatoo
3. i am pretty sure that deep down my life goal of being on the real world is still there, although Leann told me about this cool thing called the World Race that sounds pretty awesome.
4. i need a hair cut
5. i'm tired: emotionally. physically. mentally. spiritually.
6. sky diving might go on in december.

Saturday, July 15, 2006

i am/was (Jordan just had me turn it down) listening to brevada really loud in the office right now...it's good, i want to hear "urgency", it's kind of where my heart is.

gah what a week, it is definitely the middle of the summer, let me just say that. we had ACA this week, which pretty much determines whether or not we would remain an accredited camp. let's just say monday, tuesday, and wednesday I experienced some of the most intense stress and pressure i've ever felt. by lunch on wednesday Gene was painting it as if we were really in a tight spot adding just more stress and caused me to prepare for the worst, failing. at about 5 that afternoon he called Jordan and I into his office, informed us of the "case of the stupids" we as a staff had that day, then let us know that we got a 100%...by the grace of God only, man, I had no choice but to cry. we also had The Difference from SWU in this week which is always a joy and it was quite sad to see them go this afternoon.

i feel like spiritual moral is kinda low around these parts and that there is the same underlying tension there has been for the past few weeks. part of it, i know, is because i am not with the kids as much as the counselors so i don't get to see the same growth as they do. i feel like God is really breaking me and teaching me and it's been tough, I can honestly say I haven't enjoyed the lesson but I know He is going to strengthen me, plus, I've kind of known a breaking was on the horizon for a while now.

in so many ways though God is blessing things here at Rockfish. we had so many kids come to know Christ this week and it's so exciting. I got to hang out with some way cool operation purple girls and minister to them some. there is laughter. it didn't rain. we passed ACA. so yeah. my thought process is sort of farting out right now.

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

not the best day ever, one day things will just work....

Friday, June 23, 2006

My Motherland is Ghe-tto

We walked into Brooklyn yesterday, over the bridge, and of course yelling over the side (well as close to the side as we could get) just like they do in Newsies. We also found a statue of Horace Greeley and did a brief reinactment of a Newsies dance sequence....you know, it's just how we roll.

But yes...yesterday was the most bizarre, out of whack, yet amazingly entertaining day ever. We caused a car accident (not at all a serious one) because some dude was staring at us from out his car window while attepting to drive, thus causing him to run smack into the back of the van in front of him.

Then we missed out on the time of our life with this creepy old man in Brooklyn who stopped us on the street.

We made an attempt to get to Coney Island which resulted in riding the subway back to Manhattan, switching to a train going in the right direction, and then re-entering Brooklyn and eventually making our way to Coney Island...a ride which would not have been complete without silly middleschool and highschool boys trying to look cool and tough in front of us.

Coney Island is quite an interesting place....not at all glamorous....seriously, not at all. The main attraction was a game called "Shoot the Freak"...with a live human target and an obnoxious guy with a microphone. We did eat at the famous Nathans and get a funnel cake and got to do some people watching, so the day was well spent.

Oh yes, and did I mention in some way shape or form we always seem to end up in Chinatown.

Today we were all dragging but determined to see more of the city. We hit up the Tenament Museum which was really cool. A man on the tour with us actually lived in the neighborhood when back in the day so it was really neat to hear his stories. We also did some last day galavanting about the city and then called it an early day to get back to clean up and pack.

We are leaving at 5:15 in the morning and I really ought to be in bed but I am suprisingly not really tired...my body is just exhausted...

Either way, I believe I shall head to bed...good night dears

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

If you were aiming to shoot an arrow through my heart........BULLSEYE

Thank you Chinatown...I am now officially the owner of a hot pink "Prada" bag...I love New York.

today was our Big City Day. We went to see "The Producers" which was pretty amazing and then grabbed dinner in Times Square, complete with a quite wonderful honkin' huge piece of cheesecake. We also wore dresses, which is always a great thing.

I saw the movie Say Anything for the first time tonight, I must say, I enjoyed quite a lot and it had potential to go on my list of favorite movies.

anywho, i'm about to head off to bed.

Monday, June 19, 2006

So New York is pretty sweet I must say. We got in yesterday and pretty much hung out in the apartment for the afternoon and evening, so we called it an early night.

BUT today, we got an early start and hit up the Statue of Liberty and Ellis Island which was so good. So much history there and so much more interesting then I remember it. There is just so much personal history there, millions of people went through the same doors I walked through, but it wasn't just some quick check in, it was a long, tedious, and frightening process upon which their entire futures laid.

After all that though we walked around Little Italy and China Town. I invested in a killer pair of aqua sunglasses with purple stripes and a plaid scarf...it's killer, oh and more costume jewelry...i'm such a sucker.

anywho, tomorrow I believe will be our chill day in Central Park which will entail peeing at the Plaza Hotel, riding the carousel, and eating a hotdog from a vendor. so it should be lots of fun. we also might try to get on TRL, which would be sweet, we're going to ask for Peru money (by the way, if you would like to contribute to the Peru Mission Trip send the money with my name to 226 Camp Rockfish Road Parkton, NC 28371 and make the check out to Rockfish Outdoor Center for it to be tax deductable).

well i'm out, early morning...

Saturday, June 17, 2006

ahh so much to write but not the motivation to do it all...

most importantly, the first week of camp went awesome. It was a good learning time for a lot of our new staff and busy for those of us on support staff because we were running program like crazy. for example, I lead 25 hours worth of GCC this week...go me, i'm so pro...

we had two teams in, one from IWU and another from Bethany Bible College who were SO awesome, we tried to buy the one team from BBC but it didn't work out. we were really blessed to have such hard workers come help us out...good servants and tons of fun to have around.

it was good to have kids in, there is always a good energy when kids finally come to camp, even though staff training brings its stresses and worries, kids are such a good reminder of why we're doing what we're doing.

I had one ROTC girl who seemed to warm up to me and I am hoping to get an email from her soon. She was pretty much amazing and seemed to be open and searching. The ROTC kids were wonderful, some of the most amazing kids I've worked with at camp. Sometimes I feel like God is really calling me to work with the military...I don't want to be in the military, but between Operation Purple and this week with the ROTC I just see the hurt and love to hang out with those kids.

anywho, tomorrow Jordan, Petra, and I are making our way up to the BIG APPLE BABY!! That's right, 6 days in NYC and the town will never be the same!

tis all for now, more later

p.s. zac hanson is getting married

Monday, June 12, 2006

Camp Has Officially Started

Kids came today...camp has officially begun...pray...things are kinda going nutso around these parts, but the kids seem to be having fun...more later

p.s. umm yeah...mail me stuff

Sunday, May 21, 2006

Another Summer

So here I am, once again reporting from the lovely Rockfish staff lounge, another summer is beginning. Gradually more and more staff are getting here, a lot of new people, which is exciting, summer is going to be interesting, challenging, and I have a feeling really hot.

God's bringing the kids now we gotta bring the service.

Adam Seate had a good sermon today it was the third part of a three part series called Mission Impossible. He covered three things that we all should know and practice.

1. God has already called us. He calls sinners and unusual people to do his work.
2. God isn't going to change the world by Himself, to complete our mission we have to step up and do it.
3. Work Together, as a body, to bring people Christ and bring Christ to people.
He talked about Mark 2:1-12 and he focused on the last verse about the people being amazed and never having seen what they saw (the four friends lowering the paralytic through the roof to see Jesus). Adam talked about how they weren't amazed so much at the healing but that they probably had never seen four people work together for the sole purpose of bringing a person to Christ. A different perspective, I like it. Both Jordan and I thought it would be something worthwhile to share with the staff...I will admit, I have some anxiousness about the summer, but we all have to be working hard to make this work. So we'll see how things go.

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

maybe not...keep your fingers crossed

Monday, May 15, 2006

well, pretty much all my favorite camp shirts, most of my winthrop shirts, my tiedyed capris and a killer pair of orange track pants are gone...

can i have a crappier day please...

Saturday, May 13, 2006

I, Brooke Currie, solemnly swear to
1) not break, lose, or scratch the recently purchased one millionth pair of shades for the year
2) not overpack for camp

Friday, May 12, 2006

Harry Potter number 5 is officially completely. I feel like a bad fan, it taking me this long to get through the 5th book and all, but there are still a few days before camp to dig into the 6th and get myself up to snuff.

it has been far to long since i've lost myself in a book...where i have seriously spent hours reading, unable to put it down...it's a good feeling...i also discovered one of my absolute favorite books as a child in the garage...i think i need to read it too.

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

I'm Just Going to Post This, Do With It What You Like

226 Camp Rockfish Road
Parkton, NC 28371

I will be there in a week (May 16) until August 16th

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

I Would Like to Have a Chat with the Dalai Lama

"We do not believe people are good because we see that they are good, but by believing that people are good we eliminate our own fear and thus we can intimately associate with them. To believe in the compassionate power of the Supreme Being which we cannot see is a discipline in order to believe in the invisible good of others.

Civilization has nothing to do with having electic lights, airplanes, or manufacturing atomic bombs. It has nothing to do with killing human beings, destroying things or waging war. Civilization is to hold one another in mind in mutual affection and respect." -Nichidatsu Fujii

"The Bodhisattva loves all living beings as if each were his only child."
-Vimalakirtinirdesha Sutra 5

I wouldn't say that I am a complete inclusivist, but I do know that if I were a Religion major as opposed to a Psychology major, my senior thesis would TOTALLY be on parallels between Buddhism and Christianity. Granted, there are some major differences (karma, rebirth) but honestly, if a Buddhist were to come to know Jesus I don't think he or she would have to change much about how they view and treat the world around them, in fact, I think they would be better at living out the Gospel than a lot Christians do, myself included.

If we as Christians really had our stuff together, we would love and respect a lot more. We would reach out into the world like Jesus did. We would keep our minds pure and not hate in our hearts. We would spend hours of initimate time with the Father and see the face of Christ in everyone, because they too are children of God.

"Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you" -Ephesians 4:32

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

next to playing the accordian, african dancing is my life calling...
in the words of my dear pal katie...

piss.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

feel the burn

the following entry is something i never thought i would have written or even thought.

i love being sore...i love working my muscles and pushing my body...i love leaving the gym knowing that while tonight it's ok, tomorrow you're gonna feel it....i love the tight muscles, the hot showers that follow a good workout, S-T-R-E-T-C-H-I-N-G, endorphins...it's all wonderful

this all coming from the girl who two years ago did one hour of yard work and seriously thought i would never get out of bed....

ha, i laugh at my former self
do you ever have those kind of days where you just can't seem in inhale enough? not due to some horrid, allergy induced congestive state but just because there is something so intoxicating about the air outside and you just can't get enough.

today was one of those days, well, more like this afternoon and evening. right before i was walking to work, the rain began, and there are few smells as great as rain on concrete. then coming back from work, campus just smelled so fresh, that smell that comes after a good rain...i can't describe it, but i just couldn't inhale enough of it....

Monday, April 17, 2006

broadway has reached a new something...the wedding singer has been turned into a broadway musical, that's right kids, broadway. i love the movie, but i am skeptical of it's ability to be a worthwhile broadway hit.

Thursday, April 13, 2006

anyone who wants to argue that psychology is not the best (and most fun) major here at winthrop, i ask you this: did you sing "You Are My Sunshine" as a class to the class across the hall? I am going to guess, probably not.

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

is it completely lame that i very seriously considered buying a copy of "Free to Be You and Me" tonight? do you people even know what that is? if not, you are lame.

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

glitter nailpolish takes me back to middleschool...i'm pretty sure i need to reinvest in sparkly blue...

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Cheddar Cheese Triscuts are the most mysterious snack food you will ever eat...you won't hate them and i'm pretty sure you won't love them, but you'll keep eating them.

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

only three more days and I'll be at camp...ahh, can't wait...good times are on the horizon.

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

someone make me focus pleeeease.

Friday, March 17, 2006

when a child you love and haven't seen for more than 6 months gives you a hug and says "i miss you so much" it takes all that's in you to not cry and never want to leave.
Puff Daddy's doing commercials for ProActive...that's gansta I don't care who ya are.

Thursday, March 16, 2006

i don't believe i can express how i LOATHE the Tennessee Volunteers


down with the cursed orange!

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

in honor of waking up to find A Walk To Remember on TV, I have declared this Nicholas Sparks, indulge in the love story, get a good cry out, watch The Notebook day.

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

it wouldn't hurt if people learned to use the "no harm no foul" principle a little more often.
i really need to stop watching the rockfish video so much, it's making me miss camp in a bad way.

Thursday, March 09, 2006

Spring break is so close that I can taste it and let me tell you I have big plans on the horizon. The Entertainment Schedule is as follows:

* walk 2 miles every day well all but 3 days out of 11
* get a tan (weather permitting)
* watch A LOT of TLC suprised?
* watch the entire season of Project Runway complete with Season Finale well not the entire season but i did see the finale
* bake lemon drop cookies my recipe=not good, trying mom's saturday
* bake scones
* hair cut
* take my mom out for a mother/daughter dinner
* watch The Notebook, alone :)
* write a paper it just makes me laugh i even thought i'd get this one done
* read The Cancer Journals
* study for two tests when I get back
* journal
* have breakfast with God every morning let's say midnight snack instead
* catch up on camper mail
* see the McCrackins and it was wonderful
* enjoy the privledge of going to bed as early as I want ha, i couldn't get to bed before 12 a single night but i did get to sleep in
* take the time to get ready I even curled my hair!

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

i am going to put this out there: immaturity is the root of all evil.

perhaps not "evil" in its truest sense, but evil to the degree that it is too often the root of my frustration. and i am not talking about immaturity as in, goofing off sometimes or knowing how to be silly, i mean just people not knowing how to act like adults or at least conduct themselves properly. it's always bothered me, and now more than ever it seems to be dominating.

why can't people pick up after themselves? why are some of the kids in my honors classes some of the most immature kids i interact with? why do some girls honestly not realize the world is bigger than what daddy can buy and who you will marry? why can't parents discipline their children? why am i more capable of doing the job of people who are supposed to be instructing me? why are guys so stupid?

i think a root of a lot of problems with the church lie in immaturity. people not seeking to know God more deeply, settling for contentment, not understanding the cross, men not knowing how to lead, women being ok with that (which is an issue i could spend hours on). imagine a world if we all acted like we ought to, the way God lays it out for us.

i just pray that believers can ask God for maturity in faith, realizing that God and his kingdom is so much bigger than our Christian friends and church on sunday and campus ministries and catchy t-shirts and carrying our Bible to class, not that any of those things are bad in and of themselves, but what if behind all those things we had a deep knowledge of God's soverignty and power and love and might?
alone in my room, i'm the star of my own broadway musical...


...the things newsies does for my soul...

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

DUMB DUMB DUMB

more to come later

Thursday, March 02, 2006

"you have to wear your sperry's because you don't have rainbows"

It's Prep Day Boys and Girls

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

i'm going to write a book.
despite his womanizing ways, affairs, four marriages, and a notoriously almost bipolar personality, Frank Sinatra sure knows how to tug at a girls heart, perhaps that's why he is sometimes called the Sultan of Swoon or Swoonatra.

also, did anyone else notice to birds singing today? perhaps they were just espeically loud or i have been deaf to it before but it was like everytime i went outside all i could hear was birds and as i sat in my classes i could hear them chirping. i can't say it wasn't wonderful, but that many birds kidna freaks me out...i blame hitchcock

Monday, February 20, 2006

there is really no reason for couples to hold hands while they're trying to eat...it's not really romantic, it's not practical, and unless one person is a lefty well, it's just a hassle.

it's also lame when people push the handicap button on the doors just because they don't want to hold it for the person behind them.

Sunday, February 19, 2006

"Lord, let your judgment, pass over us, Lord let your love hover near,
don't let your sweet mercy, pass over us, let this blood cover over us here"
-andrew peterson

Saturday, February 18, 2006

there are plenty of things in the world that sadden my heart. honestly, i have no intention of going through the whole list right now, but one particular thing has been on my mind the past few days.

this particular thing, is the one thing that hits the heart of every girl i have ever come in contact with but at the same time will bring almost any group of girls together, in a sad, but honest kind of way...it's body image. body image is something i don't usually rant or dwell on, but it's something that is very much an issue for the heart of every girl.

my developmental movement class is full of girls i normally wouldn't hang out with. in fact, it's one of those classes i would really prefer to sit quietly through and not really deal with anyone in. however, it's also a classes based entirely on group work, so i have gotten to know some of the girls.

the other day, by i'm sure God's intention, i found myself sitting and doing my observation with the two girls in the class i had built up some ridiculous and judgemental distance from. the observation took all 5 out of the 30 minutes we had to sit there, so naturally, we just began to chat. it started with talking about clothes, because it's a PE class we were dressed out and were talking about where to get nice but cheap workout clothes. which then led to the subject of working out, which inevitably led to talking about why we worked out and what in particular drove us to feel like we needed to.

we were all pretty much in the same boat, not girls particularly obsessed with our weight and appearance so much, but worried enough to have days and times when we just didn't feel pretty or just were less than happy with how we looked.

it's sad, because even some of the most godly women i know, who are so satisfied in their relationship with God, still struggle with this problem. Captivating spends time on this and acknowledges it as Satan's attack on the fairer sex, which it is.

i really don't have a profound conclusion or solution to the problem, so i will leave it alone, but, it does make me sad that there are plenty of girls out there who struggle with this way more than i do and who furthermore don't know their status as the princess of a king who is enthralled with their beauty.



in order to not leave everyone depressed...i believe we should all talk like the gamblers on Guys and Dolls (starring good ol' frank sinatra).

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

because yesterday was valentine's day and i KNOW you want to know my thoughts on love

after about a week and a half of irritating mental stress, all but a religion test is in the past, and i feel obligated to allow my brain some quality farting time, at least academically. not to mention, i only have twenty minutes before work and there really is no need to crack open a book just to close it again.

sigh.

it amazes me how, as someone who calls herself a Christian, I can do such a shotty job of fulfilling the most central element of the Gospel--love. If you take NOTHING else from Jesus' message, take love, it's what he was all about, it's what we are called to be all about, but we fail at it so often.

i have a really hard time loving some people, I have no good reason usually, maybe they just have a bad habit or something I don't like, but in general, i just don't care enough to love. and what a poor reflection of God to not love my neighbor?

it's funny how not matter how long you have been a Christian, sometimes you still have so many of the basics to learn. I really have just been praying for God to soften my heart to love, to revel not only in his love for me, but to love my brothers and sisters all around me, to take the focus off me and just pour love into others.

gah, i don't do emotions well, but man is my God an emotional God!

p.s. this really has nothing to do with valentine's day

Friday, February 10, 2006

tulips and lemondrop cookies...

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Let's face it, the thumbs up is dorky. It is, perhaps, the silliest gesture in our culture, but we all do it, and it's always dorky.

Thursday, January 26, 2006

All the Small Things

drinking the recommended 68 oz. of water a day; choosing wheat over white; turning off the water while you brush your teeth; going for a walk; using one paper towel instead of 2 or 3; recycling; pray on your way from one class to another; smile; hold doors; say thank you; say bless you; go to bed before midnight; floss; grab fruit instead of icecream; s-t-r-e-t-c-h....

there is a lot of credit to the small things. We hear about it often, how "love is in the details" and how the "little things" are what matter most, and while those are wholly true, it's kind of warm picture of all the little things that are done unto us, that we appreciate, and that's not what I'm quite driving at. I am saying, that there is a lot of credit to the small, conscious choices that we make. Living a healthier life style often starts not with joining a gym or buying lots of special food and work out equipment, but with a few small choices that you otherwise wouldn't make. Often, that's all it takes. And while the attempts may be meager, there are plenty of choices we can make to do our part and help out the environment a little. Changing someone's day can be the matter of a smile or picking up their pencil when it falls--no skin off your back, barely a second of your time, yet, it might just restore someone's faith in humanity. All of the many small things can sometimes just make the world, and life, a little bit better.

I truly believe, God appreciates detail, He does not ignore the small things. An honest and heartful "Lord, help me" is often times better than clouding a prayer with all the right words and format. Cutting of the TV or signing off the internet 15 minutes early to open the Word, God notices things like that. Neither will cause any damage to your life functioning (i promise) and it might even just make things a little better.

you might be asking though, why such credit for the small things, why do they deserve such acknowledgement? well the reason is, the small things are the first things to get shrugged off or ignored when we just don't feel like it or if we're feeling particularly mad at the world. Because the little things often go unnoticed and because the little things require discipline, self discipline in a way that, because they are small, we must constantly make the choice to do them. the big things we don't ignore, because they are there, they are in our face. we often make huge plans that we invest so much time, money, and effort into that, well, to ignore them would just be kind of stupid. it's there, it's prominent, you might as well pay attention to it. the small things though, the details, they are often overlooked and taken for granted.

the credit really comes in though, with the fruit these small things bear, sometimes in a way only you will know, or sometimes in a way you will never know, the small things are things, like small children, that just sort of wiggle right up to your heart, the small things are returned with small things, those quiet moments when God makes a cloud formation just for you, or lets you witness something funny, just because He wants to make your day better. The little niche in your heart, the one reserved especially for small things, it's God, letting you know that you're not going unnoticed (after all, we're all pretty small) and that He loves you.

the discipline of the small things though, the every day decision, the conscious effort, ahh, tis a great discipline to learn kids...there is not much that we can do that really merits much, the small things are about all we can do, but, like good ol' Mother Teresa said:

"we can do no great things; only small things with great love."

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

all i can do is smile...i have kid art for my wall.

Sunday, January 08, 2006

"The Sovereign Lord will wipe away the tears from all faces" Isaiah 25:8

This verse, ah, I can't really describe the comfort it brought me as I read it. What better picture of God than as a Sovereign Father? Words like "sovereign" and "Lord" highlight God's power, his majesty, his strength...but the action, the wiping of tears, it's so paternal, so loving, so so gentle.

I read this and just got this picture of a little child (all of us) crying and then this strong index finger, from a strong hand, slightly bent to delicately wipe and catching a tear, no real words, no face, just gentleness.

How great is that, so much power and so much love and so much delicacy in one God, one Father, completely gentle without losing an ounce of his power.

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

I really hope that one day my passport will be full, all of the pages used up with stamps from all the various places I hop to travel to one day.

I was looking through a desk drawer today and came across my Epcot Passport from when I was 8 years old and my family and I took a trip to Disney. It was a pretty sweet idea, you got a Disney Passport and at each country at Epcot you could put in stickers and the employees would write a message in your passport in the language of the country.

I want to go back and do that again, I think it would be good times.