so, finally a week that i can say i was truly satisfied with how it ran. for the most part, no major glitches or scheduling conflicts...most everything ran just as it ought and overall the kids were pretty into all of the activities...i'm dead tired though, not just from this week but from the summer...it's ok...two more weeks and i will be on my way to Peru...yeah buddy!

i really don't have the brain capacity to compose something of much interest at the moment, so i have decided that i will just post a list of things i have thought about over the past week:

1. i do fear that i shall always struggle with apathy
2. i want a tatoo
3. i am pretty sure that deep down my life goal of being on the real world is still there, although Leann told me about this cool thing called the World Race that sounds pretty awesome.
4. i need a hair cut
5. i'm tired: emotionally. physically. mentally. spiritually.
6. sky diving might go on in december.

i am/was (Jordan just had me turn it down) listening to brevada really loud in the office right now...it's good, i want to hear "urgency", it's kind of where my heart is.

gah what a week, it is definitely the middle of the summer, let me just say that. we had ACA this week, which pretty much determines whether or not we would remain an accredited camp. let's just say monday, tuesday, and wednesday I experienced some of the most intense stress and pressure i've ever felt. by lunch on wednesday Gene was painting it as if we were really in a tight spot adding just more stress and caused me to prepare for the worst, failing. at about 5 that afternoon he called Jordan and I into his office, informed us of the "case of the stupids" we as a staff had that day, then let us know that we got a 100%...by the grace of God only, man, I had no choice but to cry. we also had The Difference from SWU in this week which is always a joy and it was quite sad to see them go this afternoon.

i feel like spiritual moral is kinda low around these parts and that there is the same underlying tension there has been for the past few weeks. part of it, i know, is because i am not with the kids as much as the counselors so i don't get to see the same growth as they do. i feel like God is really breaking me and teaching me and it's been tough, I can honestly say I haven't enjoyed the lesson but I know He is going to strengthen me, plus, I've kind of known a breaking was on the horizon for a while now.

in so many ways though God is blessing things here at Rockfish. we had so many kids come to know Christ this week and it's so exciting. I got to hang out with some way cool operation purple girls and minister to them some. there is laughter. it didn't rain. we passed ACA. so yeah. my thought process is sort of farting out right now.

not the best day ever, one day things will just work....