Almost too good to believe...

...and i can't watch.

two of my best vices WWE and Project Runway are joining forces and I don't have Bravo...

i lose.

I no longer have to take responsibility for any of my actions

because apparently Akon has volunteered to take the blame

...and that is how I spend my Sunday

Yesterday I spent 9 hours of my day watching the ABC Family 7th Heaven marriage marathon. Needless to say, my eyes were a little teary most of the day, but that's beside the point.

I am well aware of the corniness and unrealisticness of 7th Heaven, but no matter how aware I am, I still like the show. I'm a fan and always have been.

Many a Monday night at 8 o'clock were spent on my living room couch waiting to see what the Camden crew would be up to this episode and sort of wanting to be a part of it.

Granted it always finished just in time to switch over to Monday Night Raw.

...and that's the contradiction that was my early adolescence.

School Related Things

A couple of weeks ago, I applied for graduation. Not a particularly emotion provoking event, but a very real step in my journey towards not being a college student

Yesterday I met with Dr. Lyon to make sure I had everything I needed to graduate with my honors degree. I did, and upon completion of my thesis next semester, I will be an honors graduate of Winthrop University.

In a few weeks I will have my very last advising meeting in which I will need to tie up any loose ends to make sure I meet May with no complications. Additionally, my plans of taking my last semester easy and pretty much doing only my thesis will be spoiled by the fact that the psychology department will be offering THREE different courses that all make me want to pee my pants with excitement (prenatal behavior, advanced child development, and diversity in the family). It is also statements like that which indicate perhaps I should consider going on to grad school because, well, I'm a nerd.

In regards to things post graduation...suggestions are welcome. I'm far from being stressed about it, because I know the Lord will show me where He wants me eventually, but the thoughts I've entertained on my own are broad and diverse.

Finally, in the process of writing this, the apple I am eating in between key strokes which is sitting on my lap as oozed juice making it look like i actually have peed my pants a little. hurray!

A lust finally fulfilled...

...and it was wonderful.

ok, so maybe lust is a bit of a strong word with a negative connotation.

since my freshman year Winthrop has been promising me a new gym. spring semester of my junior year, no gym, but enough of a building to be a tease. fall of my senior year, a building, a pool, a tons of BRAND NEW CARDIO MACHINES mocking me from their place inside the building that won't open.

August 17th, not open. September 3rd, not open. September 14th, not open. But finally, today, September 17th, the brand-spanking-new and amazing West Center is open and I can finally enjoy my 20 minute run on an elliptical machine :)

I am making up for my utter lack of posting with this collection of little posts

Congratulations to me, and all my other friends who are 21, WE HAVE OUR ADULT BRAINS, physiologically speaking. Apparently, the brain is continually developing and creating new myelin sheathes (which speed up neuron communication) until you are 21, which should supposedly mean that adults can think better and faster than teenagers.

Drinking is legal at 21. Drinking kills neurons, thus making neuron communication harder....irony?

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My heart is longing to be in a city...a big city...new york city.

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Prenatal development is absolutely amazing, and possibly unhealthy for someone like me who wants a baby so badly (the whole marriage thing aside, biological clock, as Kat would say)

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Jazz music is good for the soul...bottom line.

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It's almost magical outside tonight. We are in such desperate need of rain and there are thunderstorms in the predictions...wind...colorful sunsets...and that feeling like something is going to happen...could fall really be on the way?

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I wrote the ending last night!!

"I mean that to be in a relationship with God is to be loved purely and furiously. And a person who thinks himself unlovable cannot be in a relationship with God because he can't accept who God is; a Being that is love. We learn that we are loveable or unlovable from other people," Paul says. "That is why God tells us so many times to love each other."

-Donald Miller, Blue Like Jazz

Restless

rest-less [rest-lis] adj.

1. characterized by or showing inability to remain at rest
2. unquiet or uneasy as a person, the mind, or the heart
3. not content

what i'm getting at is that i need a swift kick in the pants. i just can't seem to get my butt in gear. i still enjoy school and i want to do my work, but i am just lacking motivation. i want to get up early and get ready, but i keep hitting the snooze. i want to make my days productive, but then i have days like today, where (no exaggeration) i keep my butt planted in front of the tv for hours aimlessly flipping through channels. About the most productive thing i did today was actually watch a movie to its completion. i surpassed unproductive.

i'm not really sure what my deal is.

lately i have just been feeling sort of discontent. perhaps i am subconsciously stressed out about all the stuff I have going on at school, but i really don't think that's it. i'm not particularly worried about what to do after graduation (although I do need a backup in case The Real World doesn't work out), but I have to admit I'd like a little more clarity in that area.

i think i'm just ready for something different...something new...something exciting...an adventure.

i'm not unhappy, but i think i keep trying to convince myself i'd be happier if only (fill in the blank with various plans and desires here). it's not good, i know the Lord needs to be my total fulfillment, but I'm having a hard time grasping that at the moment.

I'll leave you with this

I have hardly posted in months and what I have written has hardly been of any substance, so I leave you with this little bit of important information which proves how badly I need to just go ahead and go to bed.

Your Brain is Green

Of all the brain types, yours has the most balance. You are able to see all sides to most problems and are a good problem solver. You need time to work out your thoughts, but you don't get stuck in bad thinking patterns. You tend to spend a lot of time thinking about the future, philosophy, and relationships (both personal and intellectual).

What Color Is Your Brain?

Another Summer Gone By

How in the world did we end up in Week 8 of summer already (that's not counting the 2.5 weeks of staff training)? As you can see it's been quite busy as this is the first time I've gotten around to posting anything in months.

Camp is in a good place...our staff is amazing and the Lord has been here this summer. I've dealt with more issues and been stretched in a lot of ways. I have enjoyed this summer a lot and been able to work in a capacity that is new (although lacking in the sunshine department). It's good...summer has been good...and I will be sad to see it end.


But...Bahamas is on the horizon!

Is 20 too young to be feeling very nostalgic about things?

Job Well Done

I probably wrote about this last semester, but it's worth mentioning again.

In the academic world at least, there is probably no greater feeling than walking out of an exam, shaking the professor's hand, knowing it was a good semester with a job well done...

...and I'll do it again Friday morning...and next semester...

that's why Dr. Judge has class.

Katie and I are friggin' geniouses...be on the lookout...we're going BIG time.

Abe Froman: The Sausage King of Chicago

the end of any school year really calls for a viewing of Ferris Buellers Day Off. my freshman year of college the urge hit with great strength and was unfortunately met unquenched as i at this point did not yet have my own copy. this year however, the annual viewing was only beginning to nag my brain when i stumbled across an AMC_DVD showing of the movie. It's like pop-up video for an entire movie and for a movie i'v seen over 20 some times, it was perfect. i love falling into a fix.

i was introduced to ferris when i was about 10 or 11 and i was destined to fall in love with the movie as it was released only 7 days after my birth. i will watch it practically every time it's on tv and on other occasions when the mood strikes (for i now own the dvd for myself). it's just brilliant. it encompasses that wonderful, romanticized idea of high school that so lacks reality you can't help but love it. it's full of wisdom and an attitude towards life we could all afford to adopt. plus, deep down, we all want to be a little bit like ferris.

sigh...it's just brilliant...and most definitely on my top ten movies of all time.

New Layout

I figured it was time for a new layout.

I started this thing back in 2004 and have changed absolutely nothing about it except for the ramblings I post as I find the mood striking.

Consider it part of the gradual process of becoming a more sophisticated adult.

Why do I..

...have such a knack for ruining completely tasty and wonderful food options by looking up the nutritional facts. once i KNOW exactly how bad something is for me, i feel obligated to eat something healthier.

on the one hand it's good i guess...but milkshakes and grilled stuft burritos are just so so so very tasty.

Musical Whiplash

What is so great about itunes or using the shuffle mode on an ipod is that your musical is not neccesarily arranged in any particular order so you never really know what to expect next. and it leads to really funny transitions like going from Bruce Springsteen's "Secret Garden" (complete with the sound clips from Jerry McGuire) to Bubba Sparxx's "Miss New Booty."

that's what's so great about technology kids.

Overcompensating

I am overcompensating for my total lack of posting with the previous two (incredibly provocative) posts.

I promise, I'll try harder to be a better blogger.

Where's the love...

The 11-year-old version of myself would have never believed that my love for Taylor Hanson would one day come to an end.

But the 20-year-old version of myself has concluded that Isaac has definitely outshown his brother in rugged good looks (perhaps mostly in the "rugged" department), that age has done Isaac well, and in my expert opinion, he has become the best looking Hanson brother.

I have to admit, although many of you already know, that in my old age by affinity for Hanson has far from waned, and that with each new album (yes, they did produce music after MmmBop, and it's quite excellent too) I like them more and more.

It's nice to have something that I've liked for that long...we're going on 10 years boys...here here.

A New Prophet

The Office is brilliant. If you don't watch it, you should.

One of the greatest Michael Scott quotes, or any quote for that matter, is in an episode from Season Two called Casino Night. Michael has decided, in the name of charity, to host a casino night in the warehouse at Dunder-Mifflin, which would include gambling, drinking, and other such things. Toby, being the top-notch HR pro that he is, thinks that having children at the event would be a little inappropriate. In response, Michael says: I hate so much, about the things you chose to be.

I love Toby. Sure, Jim is gorgeous, but there is something about Toby...I just love him.

So naturally, my reaction was to think that Michael, while funny, was too harsh on my boy Toby.

Little did I know, Michael Scott is actually a prophet.

See, a week or two ago, while having absolutely nothing better to do on a Friday afternoon in the tutoring lab, I was looking around The Office cast members MySpace accounts and came across Toby's, and much to my dismay (I kid you not, my heart sank just a little) under religious views Toby had listed "atheist."

How sad. Coming from my Christian perspective, it just seems to be such a dismal outlook on life, and my dear Toby is part of that.

Michael knew though.

He hates that for Toby, but ultimately all he can do is just make this sentiment known.

Michael Scott is a prophet, that doesn't suprise me really.
:)